I'm weary today. Weary from battling heart issues like sharing, respect, and obeying all the way, right away, and with a happy heart. Phew! I usually write encouraging posts about struggles that I've gone through and how we've overcome them. Not today. :) We're still on the battle ground and the end is simply not in sight.
It's tempting to read yet another Christian parenting book, seek out another discipline method, or ask other Moms about the methods that work for them. That's what I would usually do, but I'm not even going to do that today. I know Who the source of wisdom is and I know that these struggles need to be laid at His feet daily (or in my case lately, minute by minute). I'm going to continually petition God for the hearts of my children and for wisdom and patience on my end as I guide them.
And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not. (Galatians 6:9)
I feel like fainting, but I won't. :) I know He'll get us through this season because He is faithful and good. And I know that He uses even these small trials to draw me closer to Him. So if fights over sippy cups, plastic orcas, and animal crackers are enough to bring me to my knees before the Lord and deepen my relationship with Him, the trial is suddenly a privilege.
In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, 9for you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls. (I Peter 1:6-9)
Parenting is heart work, no way around that. We reap what we sow, so if you don't put much effort into it, not much is going to come out of it. When my children sin, it helps me understand the grace that God shows me when I sin.
ReplyDeleteThanks for being so open about your Mommy struggles, Catherine. It's times like these I think God uses to remind us-- You need me! Come to me. I will give you rest!
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